I've been thinking about you on and off recently. I'm maid of honor in a wedding... it's not a huge leap. Anyway, the other night I was half asleep and I felt like you needed me, since I was in bed I just grabbed my phone and wrote it in there... I wanted to give it to you now.
[prayer preserved in the original book]
I feel like I have the propensity to be a little too selfish and introspective with this book, and if that's the case, then I do apologize. I try to remember that this isn't mine, It's yours, and that means that I can't always high-jack it for my own plans and purposes.
Sometimes I still think I might be dreaming about you. I had another dream a couple of weeks ago, like the ones from this winter. (See February 1st) It felt the same. I'm pretty sure it's you, even though there is still no face. I assume that it isn't much of a leap to guess that you will, indeed, have a face. I'd just like to see it. Whenever I wake up from those dreams, I'm torn because I'm so happy but, at the same time, I wish I could go back, even just for five more minutes. You know?
Anyway, it's getting late, so I will bid you goodnight. Maybe you'll show up again, I wouldn't mind.
Love you, sweetheart.
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