January 25, 2010 (21 years old)

Last semester wasn't a good time for me, as you might have noticed by the huge gap in communication. But my thesis book is now complete and graded (I got an A). So now I worry about the design for this semester.

If you're wondering, the inside of this book is still ripped clean off the cover, and almost a year later, I still need to buy glue to fix it. Pretty lazy if you ask me.

So, how do I feel? Can i be honest with you? Discouraged. I sit here and watch my friends make questionable decisions about their relationships or whatever, and I think, I'm 21 years old, how much longer can I actually wait for him without ever being with someone else? Every day it feels less and less feasible and realistic, but then I remember that actions have consequences and I resolve to wait longer. I mean, the sex is one aspect of it, and there are a lot of others. I just feel like its the most outward thing, and, I don't know, I hope you understand what I am saying. I'm not giving up, I'm just kind of discouraged about the whole idea.