March 22, 2005

I guess I've been favoring cursive over the last year, huh? Well, I'll give your eyes a rest.

You know what? My youth leader, L____, was telling us a story and she mentioned the coolest thing. While she's sleeping, when her husband gets up for work, he prays over her. I just thought, how cool is that? I guess my picture of marriage has been badly stilted by the world, like TV and stuff. I know that I pray for you, and you might pray for me, but I guess I didn't put it together, that marriage could be like that. I guess I'm not very close to being ready, but I'm not even 17 yet, so I suppose that, that's okay. I can still be a little girl.

I can't believe I only have a year and a half left until college. I can't imagine living all by myself then! Scary, and by the way, I am going to let you know that when it comes to boys and God, I don't have a clue. I don't know how to ask because I don't want my flesh to taint the answer, and then sometimes I decide to screw everything and compromise. And let's just say that even though I've never dated, boys have left a sour taste in my mouth. So congrats, because you're going to have to be someone really special to end up with me because I am a pain in the butt, erm, I have very high standards I won't compromise.

If you can honestly answer the question, whats more important: your relationship with me or with God? with "God" then you are my guy, but I haven't found one that's answered like that, and really proved it yet. That's all I know I want. lol. Like a line in a movie said, "I'm a sexy man of God, and I know it." I thought that was cute!

I love you.