February 15, 2004

Happy Valentine's day hon! Honestly I don't know why people get so worked up about it, shouldn't you love someone every day? I sure would.

Hey, be proud of me, I did the right thing this time about boys! You really are too much trouble, you know.

Well, this winter I became involved (innocently) with a guy at youth group, and we'd gone to a dance together. Even though we weren't dating everyone pretty much assumed that we were a couple, and we looked at it that way too. I think we assumed that we'd eventually be one. But I started getting checks in my spirit about the psuedo-relationship, so I prayed about it and I did get an answer. I was to act like this guy's sister and nothing more. I was also to do this with every other guy until further holy-spirit notice. I was such a chicken, that it took me a while to say anything but eventually I asked him to seek the Lord about it because I didn't want him to feel like I was making an excuse. And, woo-hoo!, God is faithful and he told him the same thing. So we're listening and I've come to the conclusion that doing what God says is not only easier, but in the long run, its a lot better feeling.

You know, I was honestly thinking why I even bother to write in here anymore. The fact that I still do must mean that you are a pretty special guy because all the prayer is pretty powerful, written a long time ago or spoken at this very moment.

Oh! One last thing. Please be careful with me, okay? I have a unique talent to have a problem with someone, yet act in a way that they won't know. And I don't like to talk about serious things, so make me if I am acting strangely.

Well don't worry about me for the time being. I can't date anyone until God says so, and you very well might be the first one- with the sense of humor God has sometimes. Heh!

Love you.

(Ps. this entry was in cursive and horrible to put in here because I could hardly read it. You're welcome.)