April 1, 2003

I'm sorry, but my "March time" was completely filled with "Annie" junk. The play went great, by the way. Hmm, I'm definitely trying out for it next year. I can't wait for one acts in the meantime though.

I need to rant about a couple of things. You boys are just as confusing as we are. First problem, D__. D__ is my friend and I love him dearly, but only as a friend. I mean, he's a nice guy, but we've got some really different viewpoints. My problem is that he keeps insisting that we be more than friends with his actions and insisting that we can be just friends with his words to me. I mean, I don't want to be his girlfriend and he basically won't take no for an answer. I hate it, I'm powerless. And just severely bugged by it. Pray for me? (Hey, maybe the Holy Spirit will prompt you?) I'm really worried that eventually my willpower's going to break. I'm not perfect, and I know he'd capitalize on any opportunity. That's the main reason I'm distraught. But don't worry, right now I'm praying through it myself.

The other thing that got me upset, well, I think it might not be good to put in here. It doesn't even really consider me. It considers my friend and another girl. I'm not jealous either, I helped set them up in a weird indirect way.

I just finished a book called "Redeeming Love" by Francine Rivers that's based on the book of Hosea. (God calls Hosea to marry a prostitute) It was a really, really good book, and I don't really know what my point is here, lol. I guess the main character, Sarah, kept saying that she wished she could have come to Michael (Hosea) pure and whole. That's one of my prayers for me to you. I want to be able to give you everything.

Um, what else? I think that's going to be about it for today... also, Lion King was great!